When time stood still.....

Time stood still.......everything just stopped. Frozen in this moment as faceless shadows move silently passed. Faint sobs are heard yet all other sounds seem to vanish. Footsteps shuffle across an old wooden floor. One by one each shadow blows past like a faint breeze. Stopping only briefly to release a quick burst of a sob. Hearts have been shattered falling to the ground like glass that shall never be mended. Why oh why time did you have to stop. Why did this befall upon us once again. My dear pet these are the only words I can seem to find given where I am and to what I see. These past 6 months have been so rough so difficult for me. My father had heart surgery, two months later his father passes away, and today we gather to bid our goodbyes to his mother. If only time could stand still even for a moment just a moment so I can breath. So my head and world could stop spinning. I'm drained in every way possible and it doesn't seem to end there doesn't seem to be a breaking point. Time I need you to stop to freeze so I can become a faceless shadow so for a moment I can breath......

Home away from home

Title may be deceive you my pet but this isn't what you think. Home away from home, a place I spend a great deal of time at say every 6 weeks or so. My favorite hair salon is that place. It's only my favorite because of my stylist. She's an absolute angel and has been such a blessing to my life. My pet you may find me going on and on about her but you must understand I've been to so many people trying to find my look and she's given it to me. She's given my hair that drama that I've always longed for as well as a cut that suits me. She's a delight to see and always makes one feel better. I don't know how I got so lucky to find such a talented and special young lady to make me feel beautiful. It takes a rare talent to do that with as stubborn as I am. I honestly could write a book about this angel. Crazy? Perhaps I am, otherwise why would you keep coming back here. The salon is Regis in our local mall. The angel is Carri. I highly recommend her so please do see her to experience the magic that is her. Oh and don't rat me out you can see her and my mother's reflection in the mirror. I'm such a stinker sometimes.

An Endless Journey

Life. It's an endless journey full of countless twists and turns never knowing what is coming. Challenges. Joy. Sadness. Pain. Love. It all comes in some way some form. A weary road traveled seems to have no end. So I wonder then my pet why do we continue walking down that path? Why do we seek this endless journey from the moment we're born till our last breath? Even then who says that this journey ends there. Oh my pet my greatest secret can any of us really answer these never ending questions. Tumbling. Turning. Twisting. Falling. Standing. Walking. Moving forward. Step by step we continue weathering the storms, embracing the sun. Tranquility. Peace. Hope. Oh my how those things take us by such surprise as we muster through this journey. Could it be possible that it's those moments that make this possible? It's little moments of pure sunshine in our darkest moments that seem to stand out. My dear pet could that be the answer, the point of this endless journey we take. That we are to live and walk for the sun, to be the light for others who see none, to grow and learn how to find these moments of pure bliss. Perhaps the darkness just helps us appreciate the light more, to help us know it's real. Regardless of the questions or the answers we find there is one thing I know for sure my pet, and that's none of ever take this endless journey alone. At times it may seem that way because you don't see anyone around, but I know better and so should you now. For no matter where at we are on this journey, somewhere close by someone is always watching, always protecting, and always loving us. So take my hand and come with me on this endless journey I promise it may be hard at times but with me my pet it will be one journey worth living for.

Spring fever

Oh I can just feel it my pet, can you? It's there so very close yet still so far away. Spring. My favorite time of year when everything comes to life after such a long winter's sleep. A time of new beginnings new life a whole new world. Some spring flowers have begun to bloom around here, small and tiny but they are there peeping up at me. Why even a few stray dandelion are popping up. Birds are singing. Squirrels are running about. It's a lovely sight to see after such bitter days. Slowly day by day it's even warming up. Sadly though spring doesn't really start for nearly a month still so overnight this could all vanish. Oh I hope not for I need you spring I really do. So until it's here I'll take what days I can and let this spring fever run rampant through my veins. Soon you'll be here to stay and when you do I hope good things come too.

Little red bird

Little red bird looking at me, oh what is it that you see? Have you come just for a visit? Can you stay? Tell me oh little red bird what secrets do you carry upon your wings. Can you tell me of your journey far and free, oh please little red bird won't you share with me. I see you there watching over me, could you be just a visitor from above sent here to check on me? I often wonder as I see you sitting there what it is you keep from me. To see where you've been and to know the things you know. Oh little red bird how I wish you'd share those secrets with me. But alas I know it cannot be so I bid thee safe travels as you fly away from me, hoping that one day you'll come back and share your secrets with me.

Life's Changes....

Life's changes can be quite terrifying. They can be big or small. They can affect every aspect of your life from financial, to living, your health, family, friends, even your mental state. They can bring devastation and complete failure or it could end up being the greatest thing that ever happened to you. I myself prefer to think of the latter, that making a life change will turn things around for the better. For example, as I myself have been doing you could never exercise then decide to add some. Yes it will wear you out or make you ache but if you stick it out look what happens. Your health will improve as will the quality of your life. It even will boost your moods. Another thing you could do is change a career take a different path, see where it goes. You could go back to school just to enhance what you all ready know or learn something new. Make a new friend. Get involved in some sport or activity. Just keep in mind my pet that no matter what changes you make it will be new and ultimately terrifying. Yet if you stick with it keep pushing forward then you just may be glad you did what you did because of the impact it ends up having on your life. So my dear pet what changes for your life are you willing to try this year?

New year new chapter

So we are in a new year, 2016 to be exact. Like many I'm sure many new year resolutions were made only to be broken in the coming months. So why make them? Perhaps for the fun of it I guess. Yet the start of a new year can be a great opportunity to start making small changes to make a better you. Make healthier food choices, start exercising, be involved with volunteer work, help others, smile more, live more. It sounds terrifying and it can be but just remember my love I'm here helping you along in this new year. Together we can do it! As for  myself I'm trying to improve on both my physical and emotional health. I want to be stronger in both areas of my life. So I guess that's all I have to say for this subject. Not much I know right. Don't worry my pet I'll do better next time.