My Charlie 💚

Hello my pet, it's been quite awhile I know and I wish this post was a happier one. I unfortunately come with heartbreaking news but by now you know. My sweet sweet Charlie bird has joined you hasn't he. For 11 years and 3 days though he was mine, and how can I possibly sum up 11 years into one post.....I can't. He was the unexpected part of my heart that I never planned on having. He mixed up my world in so many wonderful ways but oh my it was worth every moment, every thing I gave up for him, every tear, every single solid moment was worth it. I miss him so much. 

That face though how can one not fall in love with that mischievous face. He had personality and then some and for someone so small he controlled everyone who saw him. He loved his bells and knew how to ring them for attention. He loved to eat everything he shouldn't but I couldn't help but to give him tiny bits of pizza and ice cream once in awhile. It made him happy. He made me happy.

My dear Charlie this part is for you. I'm so sorry. I have been dealing with such guilt over your loss. I didn't know that was my last night with you. If I did I wouldn't have left you, but I thought you were just cold. I'm sorry my love. Please forgive me. I didn't want you to die alone and you did. It's something I didn't want and the guilt of that has been massive for me. I know I'm not to blame for I didn't know but it still hurt me. Losing you so unexpectedly left me in tears for days. Charlie I'll always love you and will forever miss you my sweet crazy little demon bird. 

My pet please watch over him until we're all together again and until then know that I love you all so very much and miss each of you dearly. Till next time.......

Charlie bird adopted January 15, 2010 passed away January 18, 2021